divin' in

it's official. we're taking the plunge.

July 12-16, Katelyn and I will board our flight to Orlando's Coronado Springs Resort for Blume 2011. As some of you may know, I'm the Blume Marketing intern for the summer and KG is another intern for National WMU. When we interviewed, we were told that we wouldn't be needed as interns for the actual event. However, God had different plans. Now, KG and I will be Y.E.S. facilitators for groups of girls at Epcot and general Blume staff for the rest of the week.

I'm not gonna lie; I'm scared. The biggest reservations I have are that I don't want to be used by God in this way. I don't want to want to do missions or become a missionary. This is where I KNOW I sound hypocritical. I love the LORD, and want to follow the path He has for me, but I want to follow my path too. I have plans. I have things I wana do, people I wana work for, and the career I want. I do want to travel. But my idea of traveling is to be a traveling journalist (i.e. be a food critic and eat my way through Europe and check out cool hotels) NOT be the next bride of Kolkata (formerly spelled Calcutta), if ya catch my drift.

The turning point was when my mama said,

"Anna, I wish you would go[to Blume]. If you open yourself up to God, and serve Him, He will bless you."

(I mean, really?! I get it..)

I've made myself perfectly clear that I don't want the desire to essentially work in this field; I want to write fluff for Southern Weddings Magazine or fluff for InStyle, not write curriculum for Sunday School. The other interns get a big kick out of this. They're just waiting for the moment when I walk into our room at Blume and say, "okay..I'm moving to [fill in the blank] to do [such n such] because I feel like God is leading me there." They, having been to Blume and experienced all its' awesomeness, are elated about the possibilities for my spiritual and emotional growth. And me? I'm bracing for a hard landing.

However, I'm taking the leap. Jumping into the deep end with the assurance that God's timing is better than my own. I have no idea what kind of emotions, experiences and growing await me in Orlando, but I'm going to go find out (even if my heels are dragging the whole way).

"Growth means change, and change involves risks. Stepping from the known to the unknown"

-anonymous (fitting, right?)

*prayers appreciated as I take a flying leap out of my comfort zone