God is in control

I've come to realize over the last few months that I am, in fact, a control freak.

It came as a shock to me, considering I'm not overly OCD in every aspect of my life. I don't color code my closet, make my bed every morning, flip my light switches certain ways or turn my soap bottles to 90 degree angles, but nevertheless, I am a control freak....

about jobs.

(searching for them, sending emails, updating my resumé daily, checking LinkedIn, following up with contacts, making new ones, and essentially obsessing about the next step in life just about every second of every day)

I allow it to take over my mind so completely that I forget to enjoy some days because I'm too worried about finding a job, taking that next step, planning it all out etc.

I'm nuts, and I know it. Thus, the purpose of this post-- a semi-cathartic attempt to purge myself of negativity and focus on the good (better yet, wonderful) aspects of my life.

By remembering this:

And singing this at the top of my lungs:

(yes, the is the real music video.. it's an oldie but goodie)

Okay, I'm not quite here yet...

but I'm tryin'.